this journal started i was happy as pie. i was infactuated with the boy i was dating and tantalized by another.
it turns out both were completely assholes.
but everytime i hear about and see that one boy who broke my heart so many summers ago i get a flutter and an ache that i don't think will ever go away.
too many questions were left unanswered, too many questions that will never be answered.

i wish there was some way to put you in the past and make you stay there.
to say good-bye once and for all.
to be happy to see you happy,
instead of wanting to make you fall.

i wish there was a way to understand what happened,
we ended so suddenly, i just hid the pain away
my heart was already broken now it'll never be truly fixed,
until you come and set me free so be free one day.

i don't blame you for the trouble i just want to figure this out,
i don't want to have this yearn this need,
to impress you all over again,
to win your love to prove to you i'm the one you need.